Anonymous said: does hating life , thinking that life doesn't worth me living it and for that wanting to die , waiting for the courage to suicide , make me a nihilist ? , or , like are these things nihilists believe ? i guess there are two types of nihilists , right ? , i'm sorry just that someone called me a nihilist and i don't know , i mean what else should i believe as a nihilist ?
I’m sorry, I don’t really understand your distinction. I think it’s both - that’s what a nihilist is and that’s what a nihilist believes. You’re leapfrogging off my discussion with ajouissance, right? Cuz I do think there is an important distinction to make between your and his nihilism. In his 1887 notebooks Nietzsche distinguishes between nihilisms:
Nihilism. It is ambiguous:
A. Nihilism as a sign of increased power of the spirit: as
B. Nihilism as decline and recession of the power of the
spirit: as passive nihilism.
ajouissance seems to be affirmative (or active) about his nihilism whereas you seem to be defeatist (or passive)—though you are active in that a part of you still flickers and finds meaning in the goal of suicide. Please consider this, that you believe in some sort of meaning. That’s a good thing; I’ve been where you are before (I think?) and this was my escape ladder: that, if I could find meaning in wanting to die, then why couldn’t I find meaning in something else??—like thinking and writing and talking about nihilism? lol
I don’t agree with either nihilism now, really. I definitely have moods that align with both your nihilisms but I don’t think either is the truth or how we should live our lives. I’ve inverted Nietzsche’s nihilism - I don’t think of it in purely negative terms like he does. I think everything is true instead of thinking everything is a lie or falsity. If one believes the latter I don’t understand what ground one has to stand on to make that very claim. Please talk to me off of anon if you want me to expound on any of this.
Nihilism as a normal condition.
It can be a sign of strength: the spirit may have grown so
strong that previous goals (“convictions,” articles of faith) have become incommensurate (for a faith generally expresses the constraint of conditions of existence, submission to the authority of circumstances under which one flourishes, grows, gains power). Or a sign of the lack of strength to posit for oneself, productively, a goal, a why, a faith. It reaches its maximum of relative strength as a violent force of destruction-as active nihilism.
I think you’re cool for hitting nihilism though, anon, if it means anything to you. Most people don’t feel despair like you must feel. It’s important that you find solace in this fact. You have a better bullshit-detector than most human beings that have lived. Now, apply your bullshit-detector to your bullshit-detector - this is the key. Or it’s not the key, maybe you should just kill yourself. I would think you were delusional or flawed for doing so but I might be wrong. I’ve been in mental-states where I definitely thought everyone was wrong for wanting to live. I think you’re wrong now, though, and I don’t think I’m living in a delusion for wanting to live. Consider that. Actually just talk to me off anon, we can discuss more significant things personally compared to publicly.